Butterflies trapped in the cage of hope and expectation, laced with excitement and a hint of reality which slowly sinks into my bloodstream making its way to my brain explaining that the day is finally here. Four and a half hours away to be exact.
It is absolutely insane, and driving me a little bit so, to think that I will be in the Philippines on Saturday (we lose Friday from the international date line). Of course I am excited for it, but at the same time it's like OMGOSHERSAREYOUKIDDINGMEAFTERALLTHISTIMEIMACTUALLYGOING...WHAAAAT!??!!!
Please understand, I am definitely (finally) excited but at the same time I am scared out of my mind. We still are not totally sure what we will be doing while there, which is kind of freaking me out-habit of a control freak. Then again, this is a huge step to be going to a foreign country for no reason other than God told you to and you have had a dream of going on this trip for eight years which was instilled in me from God.
I cannot believe I am actually doing this, never in a billion years, two years ago, did I think this is what I would be doing with life. Two years ago, I thought I was going to get my degree from a university, hopefully UNR, possibly teach history-or whatever my mind decided to settle on. In a little over a year, from today, I would graduate college-now there's a scary thought. And then I would settle down, hopefully start a family after getting my ground with my job, etc. But God had other things in store for me... He made it quite clear that I was not supposed to be in college, yet. And maybeh, after my time working with YWAM Vegas is over I will go to seminary school, but for the next year and four months I am supposed to travel and work as a missionary. Not that I would even dream of complaining (; The job is great, but just like any other it has its ups and downs. Granted, this particular trip, is a HUGE up-almost like the peak of the Xcceleator at Knott's Berry Farm with its 90 degree drop. Many twists and turns, drops and climbs, flips and squeals, but life is so much more fun and worth it that way.
So where am I getting at with all this smorgasbord juxtapose of nut-so craziness?
I have no idea... My mind is all over the place right now, but my heart is at complete peace and adrenaline waiting to get on that plane only to step off into a new world.
It is absolutely insane, and driving me a little bit so, to think that I will be in the Philippines on Saturday (we lose Friday from the international date line). Of course I am excited for it, but at the same time it's like OMGOSHERSAREYOUKIDDINGMEAFTERALLTHISTIMEIMACTUALLYGOING...WHAAAAT!??!!!
Please understand, I am definitely (finally) excited but at the same time I am scared out of my mind. We still are not totally sure what we will be doing while there, which is kind of freaking me out-habit of a control freak. Then again, this is a huge step to be going to a foreign country for no reason other than God told you to and you have had a dream of going on this trip for eight years which was instilled in me from God.
I cannot believe I am actually doing this, never in a billion years, two years ago, did I think this is what I would be doing with life. Two years ago, I thought I was going to get my degree from a university, hopefully UNR, possibly teach history-or whatever my mind decided to settle on. In a little over a year, from today, I would graduate college-now there's a scary thought. And then I would settle down, hopefully start a family after getting my ground with my job, etc. But God had other things in store for me... He made it quite clear that I was not supposed to be in college, yet. And maybeh, after my time working with YWAM Vegas is over I will go to seminary school, but for the next year and four months I am supposed to travel and work as a missionary. Not that I would even dream of complaining (; The job is great, but just like any other it has its ups and downs. Granted, this particular trip, is a HUGE up-almost like the peak of the Xcceleator at Knott's Berry Farm with its 90 degree drop. Many twists and turns, drops and climbs, flips and squeals, but life is so much more fun and worth it that way.
So where am I getting at with all this smorgasbord juxtapose of nut-so craziness?
I have no idea... My mind is all over the place right now, but my heart is at complete peace and adrenaline waiting to get on that plane only to step off into a new world.
Please keep up in your prayers, especially now more than ever before,
Saint
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